Busy life. Everything is flooding in, and all is flowing out. In some sense, I feel relieved, in some other, I feel tense. I don't know why but I can't read myself anymore. Perhaps it is because of the circumstances, or- it's because I'm afraid to look further than what appears to the eye. I believe it's the latter. Underneath my skin, I feel this tight knot making me feel... anguish, loss, despair... Even though I have no reason to, or- it is because I haven't looked far enough; I wouldn't know. Would I?
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Today, I had a TAP to do in my Humanities class. It went better than I thought it would. Then, I stayed in school till 5:30PM to work on the forearms of my 'pantin'. I have no idea how you say that in english. I had to carve and engrave some designs onto the surface of the wood. I'm not quite done with them. I still have some few arrangements to fix and then I'll take some pictures. :)
Tomorrow, I don't have school because there is a strike going on. I wish I could have stayed home and slept in and enjoy my one day of break. BUT, I have to head out and give Baby back to Mai. :)
I found god On the corner of first and Amistad Where the west was all but won alone, smoking his last cigarette I Said where you been, he said ask anything Where were you? When everything was falling apart All my days were spent by the telephone It never rang And all I needed was a call That never came To the corner of first and Amistad
Lost and insecure You found m, you found me Lying on the floor Surrounded, surrounded Why’d you have to wait? Where were you? Where were you? Just a little late You found me, you found me
In the end everyone ends up alone Losing her, the only one who’s ever known Who I am, who I’m not, who I want to be No way to know how long she will be next to me
Lost and insecure You found me, you found me Lying on the floor Surrounded, surrounded Why’d you have to wait? Where were you, where were you? Just a little late You found me, you found me
Early morning, City breaks I’ve been calling for years and years and years and years And you never left me no message You got some kind of nerve, taking all I want
Lost and insecure You found me, you found me Lying on the floor Where were you where were you
Lost and insecure You found me, you found me Lying on the floor Surrounded, surrounded Why’d you have to wait? Where were you, where were you? Just a little late You found me, you found me
Mai and I are going to get an ice cream phone. I want a pink one! :D And Fred is getting a lollipop phone :)
SO PRETTY~ CAN YOU BELIEVE THIS PINK PHONE WILL BE MINE?! MWAHAHHAAHAH! SO cuuute :(
I'm going to work my ass off during summer to pay off my trip to the US, to Spain and THIS?! And all the things I was planning to buy? I think I'll postpone them a bit. Like that SLR camera... sigh...
why do i wake up every morning with my jaws clenched tight? why does everytime i'm not conscious of my actions, when i am 'dans la lune', i always end up clenching my teeth.
it hurts.
i don't know why i unconsciously do this. is it because i'm stressed? i have a lot to deal with but i'm managing fine. at least, i think i am.
I was at school and took pictures of 10 of my paintings or drawings. I had to take two pictures of my work for my portfolio and 20 pictures of like daily life, like snapshots. That's for photoshop class so that I'd be able to use them to like manipulate pictures or whatever. The teacher didn'.t explain it very well though. He said as if we had to take 20 pictures of our work... for the portfolio. So today, I brought 11 paintings and drawings. Damn it. It pisses me off. It was so heavy when I brought it to school. But the pictures came out good. :D I went to the school's audiovisuel to borrow a camera and a tripod. I forgot to bring my USB key and shit so I feel ridiculous. I wasn't planning on doing the picture thing today. :T I was planning on doing it on wednesday night, after humanities class. But I was told that it doesn't take a lot of time to finish the assignment so I just did it, although I am missing two sculptures. I can always do that on wednesday. Today, I took pictures of the artwork I've always wanted to, so it's a win-win situation today :D It was a good opportunity YAY! :D And like there's this intercollegial contest going on for art students. We have to submit one of our artwork and I decided to submit the Twiggy portrait I did. I still have to show it to my teacher before I submit it though. :T Either that or I can paint something tonight. :D I'm really motivated. I just got to get it done before thursday, because that's when the jury chooses who gets to participate in the contest. I'd really like to get in that. :D I don't have homework for tomorrow. I have an exam on wednesday in humanities class.
This portrait I had to do for Org. Pict. 1. Some drawing I did in HS about pollution.
A greyscale portrait for Color class last term.
A drawing I did like... 2-3 years ago. :)
Paintings of bamboo I did in Org. Pict. 1. with the theme China. I had other canvases that go with it as well, but I didn't take it in pictures. :T
A spray painting I did two years ago, in winter. :)
A painting I did during summer 2009.
A painting in which I just played with the colors. :) 18/01/2010
A painting I drew a long while ago. Like during the summer 2009 maybe.
Oh sometimes I wonder Will you be my shoulder? If I cry, would you comfort me … yeah
Will you love me forever? And will you take me like no other? Cause no I can't say What’s in your heart, Yeah!
And I wonder Babe Will you stay with me? Yes I wonder now What we used to be Cause I wonder Will you always love me?
Now I've lost my disguise so I'll just put it on the line Think I've found what I wanted for so long, and now
Will you love me forever? Will you take me like no other? Cause no I can't say What’s in your heart…baby
I wonder Baby Will you stay with me Yes I wonder now What we used to be Cause I wonder Will you always love me Yes I wonder Will you always love me, yeah… said I wonder will you always love me….. Will you always love me….
Maybe I should have taken one last glance before I walked away.
I was debating whether I should or not as I was walking. By the time I decided I should, I was too far away and he had already gone. I wonder if he was waiting for me to turn around? Maybe I should have.
I went to the dentist and got my teeth repaired. Then, I met up with Laine and went to the hairdresser. Laine got a trim, and then Jay came. And I got my haircut as well. We got a bubbletea after and we ate poutine for supper. ;) WINNER :D
These last two weeks were horrible, and I don't even want to talk about it. I worked for the last three days, and my spring break officially starts tomorrow :)
I'm going to cut 30 cms of my hair tmrw. :D It's going to be a big change! I can't wait! : D
I have a lot of things to do this week. I have some sculpture projects, paintings and a portfolio to do. I broke like 5 of my nails :( I'm so sad and it hurts. Sniffles.
Okay, I better go sleep because I have a long day tmrw. I gotta wake up, go to the dentist, and like get three of my teeth repaired. Long story. I'll be done around three. Then, I'm going downtown with Laine, Jay and Mai. We'll shop around, and then meet up with Wendy. We'll all go cut our hair, except Mai. :) She's getting her hair cut and bleached on tuesday morning. :)
I can't waiiit! :D
so good night!
I miss blogging so much :) I guess I have been so preoccupied with school that I put everything else aside. :T
And I've been a bit down lately. I haven't had a good night sleep in... weeks. I don't eat as much. But I got friends who back me up with words of comfort and smiles :) I was on the phone with Kevin for 2 hours straight trying to talk things out. It was funny :)
OKIIIE. I don't know why the images were blown up so huge. O________O"
Well I had a supper at Laine's house after work. They made pizza and we cooked up some chicken. :) It was REALLYY DELISH! :D I HAD A GREAT TIME! I MISS YOU GIRLS IMMENSELY!
My art is instinctive, expressive and reflective of my soul. It feels for me, it thinks for me, it moves for me, it speaks for me.
I paint to influence, to move, to feel and to express my feelings.
The emotions are sometimes so strong that I work without knowing it. The strokes come like speech.*Vincent van Gogh
The only time I feel alive is when I'm painting.*Vincent can Gogh
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My name is Sylvia. I'm 19 years old. I go where my hearts leads me to, and at this moment, it's beating for arts. It allows me to learn, to see, to explore, to discover things about the world, and about me. I wish to live my life well and to be able to express my voice in all possible forms.more?
